Doublewide Heaven

Well things around here aren’t that great. If I haven’t told everyone (which I am sure I have) me and Steve were looking at building a house on the land we purchased. Well after looking at prices just for the material we have found out that the whole idea is way out of our price range even if we do most of the work. So that was a little sad since I had so much fun making our floor plan....We also now have to spend more money on our septic system so that totally throws off my strict budget we had been going by. So I am going to be Queen of Steve's doublewide...I am okay with it all I guess..we went looking and bided on one at a pretty cheap price so I hope we get it ....I have so many ideas for the kids room that I cant wait to get started....
Well as for the kids...Bubba is totally in his terrible 2's and he is not even in his 2's yet...I need help with this one he is as stubborn as me .....Amy Rose is being good most of the time but sometimes she can get so sassy.....She is so cute lately she gets dolled up in these play clothes with the tiara, dress, necklace and even shoes and walk around saying she is a princess. She even pretends to put makeup on her and Bubba. She wants a Barbie doll. I told her that they are just idealistic views of what women should look like and she looked up at me like I was crazy. So I told her okay I will buy you a doll just not a Barbie which is pretty much the same thing...I am so weak when she has been so good that day...
As far as me I feel lonely lately with Steve gone and a good friend that left out of the country who uplifted me when I was down. I have family but I don’t ever feel like my true self around them....True friends are so rare it’s so depressing when a good friend moves away and you can’t really find anyone to even remotely substitute.
Anyway sorry this letter was more of a pity party but unfortunately that is exactly how I feel....I am so frustrated but life goes on